I watched a video of the engagement of two people I used to know tonight. I try really hard not to look at the fun lives people I know have. Because since day one I have been monumentally good at hooking up with people who sup all the enthusiasm and enjoyment from my life.
I am just a terrible judge of people and have always put other people’s happiness before my own. I am not selfish in that respect. And I have paid for it at every turn.
So when I see people who have perfect, happy lives and normal relationships it blows my mind. Because I don’t understand how that happens. And if it does, how long does it last?